酸甜苦辣

by Julia

I’m in a sort of life slump right now. It happens to the best of us.

(*>_<*)

The truth is, I’m stretched thin among too many things – but there’s nothing I’m ready to give up right now.

This is the problem I keep dragging around and that bugs me everyday.

I think this blog shows it well: I talk about Chinese learning, but then Japanese pops out, and there’s beauty product review, and planners, and tv series and dramas, and books, and photodiary posts. I work 2 jobs, practice yoga, try to eat clean, two instagram accounts, twitter, tumblr.

This can signify only one thing: I’m not focused.

Plus I have some unsolved issues I’m (apparently) not willing to face yet.

#toomuchangst

I usually don’t have that many bad days but this appears to be just one of those.

I may try to focus a little more on language learning for a while [but I say this often, and actually never really do so]. Having too many interests it’s just part of me and I can’t pretend to be a different person, but this doesn’t mean I can’t withdraw a little when I feel like doing so. Prioritize is something I’m still struggling with.

But the more I go on, the more I feel like I need to make clear choices, even if I don’t want to.

I feel a lot like downsizing right now. Like, everything. The closet, the desk, tha stationery drawers: I would just like to make a huge purge and feel light and free again.

[I should probably do that anyway]

Right now I much need a dance in pants session and order not to overanalyse everything and just free my mind ヘ(= ̄∇ ̄)ノ when I’m in the I-hate-this-effin-world mood it’s usually very good for me to do some physical exercise in order to empty the mind from every possible destructive thought. A good sleep’s night and then usually I’m able to see things in a clearer way.

I think this is the most personal post I ever wrote.

I usually don’t like to talk about private stuff on the internet but today I was sort of feeling the urge to actually say that I’m pissed, and that I’m definitely going to do something about this.

I’m sorry for all my latest subscribers, this blog may soon undergo a style twist from what it used to be. Feel free to unsubscribe whenever you want =)

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